If you've ever struggled with your weight, you can probably relate to this, especially the first few days of a new year ...
I took a deep breath today and weighed in ... not as bad as it could have been, but I've definitely put back on a few pounds this past year. Not good when I have such a long way to go. This past year has been a real struggle between injury, diagnosis of thyroid disease, blood pressure complications, hospitalization ...then just plain ol' discouragement, then flat out rebellion against good habits!
To combat all of that (cause goodness knows I do not have enough willpower to overcome all of that!), I came home and put all the Christmas candy and goodies in Ziploc bags and stuck them in the OUTSIDE freezer. Went to the grocery store and restocked my frig and pantry with foods that are better for me and will help me make better choices. I've taken on a challenge to walk 60-70 miles this month ... so far I've walked almost 10...I'm well on my way. I have declared to myself that I will write down every morsel that I eat. Today I was successful with that and managed to stay within my daily points allowance ... and I felt great about it!
If the past two years have taught me anything, it is that routines and habits...good habits...are two of the best tools you can have in your workshop when building your weight loss and fitness plan. And I have always been a creature of habit. So what happened to me this year? Believe me, I've spent a ridiculous number of hours trying to figure that out. And you know what? I really don't know ... I've rationalized; I've made excuses; I've tried to reason it out; I. Just. Don't. Know. But I do know that I could drive myself (and everyone else) crazy trying to figure it out. So I'm not going to do that anymore ... what's done is done. It's time to pick myself up, stop moping and just get back to business. And that started today ...
Someone said today in our Weight Watchers meeting that you have to be a little selfish when you are trying to be healthy ... you have to take the time to plan your meals and snacks, you have to take the time to track what you eat, you have to take the time to be more active.
For those of us who struggle with weight, it truly is a moment-to-moment battle. Losing this weight has been the hardest, yet most rewarding, thing I've ever done...gaining some of it back has been one of the biggest blows to my self-confidence ever...not to mention embarrassing. Becoming healthier is my goal ... I'm hopeful to continue doing that this year ... and for the rest of my life.
